...I want to break every clock, the hands of time could never move again...

Yesterday Hans and I had a brief conversation about the future and how much things change as time goes on. So, I've been thinking about it a little bit. What does the future hold? Is there any way to really know? Is planning your future around circumstances that could change really even worth it? Do I want to go to college? If not, what am I going to do? Am I going to get married right away? Where will I live? Will I stay home? What will the relationships I have now look like in a year? In five years? How much will things change before I graduate?

Yeah. I have no idea.

No school today. No school yesterday. Tomorrow I'm going to see my friends' band play at a coffeeshop in Ames. I'm excited. I just emailed Jason because I haven't talked to him in forever. No one is online. Taylor and Hans are both out of town. I'm kind of tired but I don't feel like going to sleep. I want to get a nice notebook. A pretty one. I should do that sometime. This is a long, weird paragraph.



  1. You talked to me yesterday! Hurray! Just to let you know I actually did switch my mouse and then everything was all snazzy.

  2. Mm. The future is a wonderful thing to ponder if you want to end by creeping yourself out. The future is a scary prospect, and I think thinking about it lends us the advantage of going into life with our eyes slightly wider open.

    I'm glad you don't think you have an idea. I would worry about you endlessly if you had.

    Oh, my. I wish I had days like that. There are, of course, days when I don't do school, but on those days, I normally am supposed to, and so I go to bed feeling guilty.

    *chuckle *


    Nice notebooks are lovely, but I have a small, cheap, black notebook that has served me very well.