But you're no fool, baby, it was just me...

I am writing songs for the first time in probably 2 years.  2 years is a long time to have writers' block.  I'm glad for it to be done.

My day was weird today.  I am ready for bed.

This blog is short, and I'm sorry, but I really just have very little to say and I don't really even feel like blogging.  I'm just doing it to do something, instead of feeling useless.

I miss the kids.  They like me, and I like them, and I don't have to pretend to be something around them, because they don't really care about my issues.

That's the whole blog.


Make money money, make money money money...

I don't usually use lines from songs that are about money, but this John Reuben song isn't really in the normal spirit of money songs, and I really do enjoy John Reuben, particularly his older music, and this blog is about me wanting to spend money, and thus my need to make money, and also to save money, all things that are incorporated into John's song, Make Money Money.

This blog is a breakdown of some things I'd like to buy.  Not all of them, because that would take a disturbingly long time.  But, you know, I was on ModCloth yesterday, and found lots of stuff that I lovelovelove, and there are a few other things I have my sights set on.  Most of them I don't plan on buying, for the record.  I just like to look at them and speculate that someday they might be mine.

All A-Twitter Laptop Bag (ModCloth, $54.99)
Do I already have a laptop bag?  Yes.  Is this one cuter?  Yes.  Not something I plan on purchasing, but it's pretty adorable.

Old and New Pocket Watch Necklace (ModCloth, $27.99)
LOVE.  This is beautiful.  I definitely have a thing for pocket watches, especially in necklace form, and I think this one is the prettiest I've seen.  I would really love for someone to buy this for me as a present, but as far as buying it for myself, I'm not sure it'll ever happen.

Dining in Prague Plate Set (ModCloth, $34.99)
I really might buy these.  I already have these adorable Russian nesting doll measuring cups and a set of Russian doll salt and pepper shakers.  These would make my future kitchen PERFECT.  They are just freaking cute.  If I ever find $35 lying around, they're mine.

Other People's Love Letters, Compiled by Bill Shapiro (ModCloth, $22.99)
It's pretty obvious that this book is entirely comprised of love letters written by other people to other people.  I find it adorable and hilarious.  I can't see myself buying this, but I'd like to own it.  It's a good book to sit out on your coffee table for when you have people over.

Library Corner Cardigan (ModCloth, $52.99)
Just a cute cardigan.  I would love to be a cardigan person, and yet I have no cardigans.  Why is this?  Whatever the reason, this one is adorable but way too expensive.  Pretty to look at, not to buy.  I would totally wear it though.

Random Dawdle Paper Mouse Pad (ModCloth, $11.99)
A mouse pad with random things to write.  I actually would probably buy this if I were to see it somewhere in person where I didn't have to pay shipping and all that, but the truth is that I don't even use a real mouse most of the time, and I really don't need it.  But it's pretty funny and cute.

Refurbished iPod Touch, 16GB (Apple, $199.00)
I do plan on buying this in the very near future.  I sold my Nano to Emily, and now I'm ready for something bigger and flashier.  My only concern is that 16gigs isn't enough, and that I should wait and spend the extra $50 for a 32gig.  Thoughts?

So there are a few things.  The only trouble with the few things in that list that I actually would like to purchase is that I have not a lot of cash on hand right now, because I just bought a car and a prom dress and paid six months worth of car insurance.  So, even though I'm not really broke, I'm feeling the pressure to stop spending so much, which is not at all a bad thing.  The iPod will happen just as soon as I decide if 16gb is good enough, and those plates may hopefully happen someday, but all in all I really am happy with all the cool stuff I already have.  I have some neato stuff.  But of course, stuff never really ends, and there are always more things to want and more things to be had.  I try to take money seriously while still remembering that, really, it's just money, and sometimes there is more and sometimes there is less and sometimes you can spend it and sometimes you can't, but I do like to buy stuff just for fun sometimes.  Not just for me, but for other people, too.  Life should be fun, and stuff can be fun, when you're not just buying stuff because you think you need it or because you can't help yourself.  I think I can help myself.  I hope so at least.

In other news, I just did a guest post for Art's blog, Kind of a Big Deal.  Art is a great guy, and his blog is one of my favorites.  If you know me in real life, you may have met him a year ago at my graduation party, but if not, you'll have to say hello the next time he comes around.  In the meantime, go visit his blog and leave lots of fun comments.  It will make you smile.

The Butterfly Child


This is it, this is the last dance, but you don't have to go on this clear and starry night...

I am blogging right now.  I'm making myself.  I don't know why I feel obligated to keep posting things, but for whatever reason I have to do it.  It's just what I do now, I guess, and not doing it feels off.  I guess it is just how I unwind.  I don't journal or anything.  I just blog.  I guess blogging is a sort of journal, except in public, and typing is less work than hand-written stuff.  Although I really love to hand-write things.  Really a lot.  I wish I hand wrote things more.  But like I was saying, I am just used to blogging, and I'm used to blogging as an outlet for the "daily grind" kind of stuff and just my thoughts and feelings on things.  So, I keep doing it, because it's just what I do.  Read it or leave it.

Andrew and I are going to breakfast tomorrow.  Really early in the morning.  I will be leaving my house half awake, makeupless and possibly unshowered at 5:50 AM.

I had something I was going to rant about and I forgot what it was.  Hmm.  Guess I'll just keep talking about boring things.

My prom dress came today!  I won't post pictures here until prom rolls around, but I'll tell you that it's super pretty and super long!  Kim's mom is going to hem it for me and take it in and whatever else it needs.  It's awesome though.  For real.  I am excited for prom.  I hope it is as fun as last year was.  I already think the group is going to be pretty different, but I'm still excited.  Lots of people I know complain about prom being lame.  I think they need to have more imagination.

Click here to watch a cool video of Glenn Wiedenhoeft from the news the other day.  Mr. W is my friend Ben's dad.  Ben plays drums in Atombender, a ska band from Ames, and he used to play drums in The Final Pardon back when we existed.  They have the greatest back yard ever.  Even more so now that Mr. Wiedenhoeft has made it so awesome.

That is all!