...burning down Neverland, scatter the ashes...

I want to write a song. I have that itch that you get every once in a while to write. It's Anberlin's fault, I think. And Ben's fault, too. But he won't mind, because he whines about how I don't write often enough. Yes.

Today a nice person asked me like, four or five times if I'd rather sit in their spot on the couch than on the floor, and it was funny, and I kept saying no. Eventually there were empty spots, so the person told me to sit down, and I did, because the person kept asking, and I wasn't depriving someone else of a seat. It was sweet. I don't really know why I'm blogging about this, but I feel like writing it down and I like to tell stories, whether they're dumb or not.

Well, I'm going to bed now.



...At least you're still my day late friend...

Well. I feel a little better. I need to get to school though. I'm tired. Carter and Owen are coming over, so that will be fun, and probably will put me in a better mood.

I figured out what the party was that Emily and I didn't get invited to. It was mostly just Andy being confused.

My fingernails are painted in Vanilla Whimsy. I need to fix them a little bit though.

Yesterday I got a scarf at WalMart. It's knitted and black and has big white knitted flowers on it. It's cute. I like it. I also got some earrings, a pair of which I am currently wearing.

Last night Emily and I went to see that new James Bond movie, because the small group we babysit for was canceled. I keep spelling canceled wrong. About the movie, I didn't like it very much, and I don't really know why, but I didn't. Oh well. Oh yes, and I owe Emily five dollars. Don't let me forget.

I have a whole playlist of music I like to dance to. How awesome is that?

Anberlin is taking over my big green head.



...If the stars don't shine tonight, and tomorrow forgets the light...


I'm going to cry. No, not really.

So. Josh won't be at the band meeting tomorrow. Thus rendering it somewhat pointless to even meet. Or even practice, since we don't really have any reason to practice unless everyone is there. So I just called off practice. And I don't know if I did that because it's pointless to meet, or because I'm mad that it fell through.

I miss fireflies. And I don't like that very much.

This is not my night.

A butterfly

Do you hear the sound of melodies rising up to you?

NO SCHOOL!!!!! *score*

So. Yeah. I suppose that's it. *laugh*

Iowa is very pretty today. It's also very canceled.

I'm listening to Leeland! I like them a lot.

I miss school now.

I'm talking to Emily on MSN. That makes me happy. Em is awesome. We keep pushing the *nudge* button because it makes us laugh. She and I got not invited to a party last night apparently. We feel left out. But that's alright, because apparently it was a family thing or something. I don't really know what that means, but it doesn't really matter, because I probably wouldn't have gone even if I had been invited. *shrug*

Well. I don't have anything else to say.



You know what to do, hey, you just move

Hahaha. I'm in a very dance-y mood today, for some reason. In conclusion, I'm listening to John Reuben. Cheah!

I want to make Emily take me to get coffee, but the whole freezing rain thing doesn't jive well with driving and clear roads and stuff. So I don't think I'm going to make her drive anywhere. Because that wouldn't be very nice, and if she died because I made her drive on icy roads I would feel bad.

I'm on a Homestar kick these days. It makes me laugh.

I have no opinion, I don't, I could, but I won't, I'm tired of arguing...

AHHHHHH ITALICS ARE STUCK ON FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111111111111. Oh, nevermind, I fixed it.

I want some Chinese food.

I'm going to do stuff now.



Tell me what's your dream and I'll be there

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Hello. We're getting ready to go see Amazing Grace with some friends. It will be fun. I'm excited. We've been reading about the slave trade and whatnot, since that's what the movie is sort of about, so it's been interesting.

I have had four or five messages left on my phone in the last couple days. I feel loved.

Annnnnd there's not a whole lot to say about today. Slept in until a quarter to 11. Listened to Mom read. Sat around. Eventually got dressed. That's about it so far.



Clap your hands all ye children

I have gummy bears!!!

Tonight I'm on worship team. I'm not sure how I feel about that. Well, that's not really true. I know exactly how I feel about it, but my thoughts aren't very nice, and so I'm going to keep them to myself until I get over myself.

You know those people that seem to be absolutely perfect and how annoying that is? Yeah. I don't like that very much. Just thought I'd stick that in there.

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Today I had school which was good, walking to church which was good, talking to Gabriel which was good, guitar lesson which was good, talking to Wendy which was good, and other stuff that was good. It's a good day!

My gummy bears are disappearing too fastly. I should stop torturing eating them.



I shall never grow up, make believe is much to fun

Eisley is quite nice. They make me want hot chocolate. I should make some.

I need to find a book to read. I decided to read more. I might finally read Screwtape, because I need to, and I'm tired of starting it and not getting through it. I'd also like to read The Case For Faith, since it's there, and I liked what we went through in Sunday School. Or maybe Wodehouse, since that would make Hans happy.

Last night I went to Andy's basketball game. he fouled out in the last quarter, and he fell, and hurt his elbow really badly. Like. Really badly. I've never seen him look like he was in that much pain before. And he's pretty tough. One time at youth group he hurt his wrist and said he just had to walk it off, and the next day went to the chiropractor and found out that the sprain was just shy of a break. So it was kind of scary to see him get hurt, but he's okay, and so far hasn't gone to the doctor, but Andrew said he was still in a lot of pain when he went home. I wonder if he dislocated it. I don't know anything about that stuff, but he was pretty badly hurt. Oh well. He'll be okay. I'll check on him when I see him tomorrow.

School was pretty okay today. I had a headache, and still kind of do, but that's alright. It happens. The style show was today. The style show is basically a little fashion show that some of the girls put on. They all modeled prom dresses. I watched a minute or two of it, but it was really kind of lame, and you couldn't even see the dresses because all the good seats were gone. Then we played a game in Algebra that I'm supposed to play with Mom, but she isn't home at the moment. It's got something to do with binary and stuff. It's kind of cool and interesting. Yeah, so that's my day today.

Now I'm going to watch Homestar Runner.



Is this the end of everything we know?

I'm about ready to kill someone, but we're not going to say anything more about it in such a public place. Because. Then he might see it. And that would be bad.

I like Stellar Kart. They make me laugh. I also like Hawk Nelson, but they're probably stupider than Stellar Kart, and they're definitely worse lyrically, which is saying a lot.

You can listen to Anberlin's entire new album on their MySpace. That is the coolest thing ever. I definitely like it a lot. I want to be just like Anberlin when I grow up.

I should figure out the set list for the show tonight.

Rainy Day (E/C#m)
Angel (E)
Jessica (A/F#m)
Grace Like Rain (A/F#m)
Characterization (C/Am)
Minor Chords (E/C#m)
Thunder (G/Em)

That works I suppose.

I need to take a shower and paint my fingernails and figure out what to wear and get my equipment figured out. I'm really stressing out about this show. I think we should have counted ourselves out over a month ago when it wasn't working out to begin with. The plans for this show have never gone smoothly, not that any of the shows ever do, but this one's been worse than the others, I think. Gosh. I'm freaking out. On top of that everyone's been sick. Josh had pneumonia and Ben's not feeling well and Andrew's going to be wiped out and I'm tired, too.


Okay. Sorry.

I need to go distract myself before I get really ticked off.



If you're my dream, please come true

The blog titles are always lines from songs. Always. Except one time, but that doesn't count.

Tonight I'm going to a party at Kristin's house and spending the night. It's going to be awesome. We're also probably going to the JV boys' basketball game, which will also be cool.

Valentine's Day was weird because some people have big mouths, and some people don't understand, but some people are absolutely incredible, so it evens out.

I'm listening to my folder of favorite music. I have great taste. *laugh*



I was young, but I wasn't naive

Valentine's day was good, and then weird, and then really good. So it was good overall. Which is good!

I'm listening to The Fray now.

My hair is wet, and I'm clean, and I smell good, because I just showered.

I need to go wait for my band now.



Live because you love, and love will make you give


Okay. I'm not really that excited, but you know, whatever.

Muse needs to be decorated. I don't know what I'm going to do with it yet though. I would have used this theme for it and then chosen something different for this one, but this one has too much space for stuff about the author and whatnot, and Muse is not really about me, so it made more sense to use this theme for Sincerely. So yeah!

I'm going to go see if there's enough muffin batter left to make some muffins.



I just woke to eat some chocolate and go straight back to bed

The pull thing does do something though. Try opening it in IE. It works for me in Firefox, but apparently not in yours, so whatever.

Today was weird.

I'm tired and worn out. I forgot how much energy that family fun night thing takes out of you. At least I got free food and a free shirt. That's always good.

That's about it.


All the boys in the band won a Valentine

I'm waiting for my band to come. We need to practice. I think Ben is picking me up an XLR cable because mine broke and we need one.

So, this is the new blog. It's all under construction and whatnot, so if you see stuff that says "insert text here" that's because it's not done and I need to finish inserting text there. I didn't design it so don't ask. I stole it from the interwebz0rz. But it's cute and I like it.

I need to go print the newish song thing from Muse. I think I'm going to play it for the half of the band that's coming. Josh is sick so he misses out, I guess.

Tonight I'm volunteering for Family Fun Night at the school. So it a majority of my youth group. It'll be fun, hopefully. We get free food, if nothing else.

I should go wait for my band now.



And I'll tell you everything that went on

So today my computer microphone is broken so I'm using my mp3 player. And I'm going to a besketball game tonight. That's all.



Take this heart of darkness, I give it up

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* . . About You . . *
Eye Color::Brown
Hair Color::Reddish brown, at the moment
Height::5'1" or 2"
Favorite Color::Black and pink
Screen Name::marathebutterfly
Favorite Band::There are too many to list them in this little box.
Favorite Movie::Chicken Little
Favorite Show::Heroes
Your Car::I don't have one. *sad*
Your Hometown::Des Moines, IA
Your Present Town::Cambridge, IA
Your Crushes First Name::That's not funny.
Your Grade::10 I think
Your Style::A friend told me the other day that I wasn't quite punk but I was still "edgy" or something like that. So yeah.
* . . Have You Ever . . *
Sat on your rooftop?:Not mine. Other rooftops I have though.
Kissed someone in the rain?:I've never kissed anyone in the sense that you're talking about.
Danced in a public place?:Yep.
Smiled for no reason?:I don't know. Probably.
Laughed so hard you cried?:Oh yeah. Lots of times.
Peed your pants after age 8?:I don't know. Maybe. I doubt it.
Written a song?:Lots of them.
Sang to someone for no reason?:Yes.
Performed on a stage?:Yep.
Talked to someone you don't know?:Of course.
Gone out of your way to befriend someone?:Yep.
Made out in a theatre?:We've been over this.
Gone roller skating since 8th grade?:Hmmm... wow, that's a good question. I don't think so, actually. I'd love to though.
Been in love?:I don't think so, no.
* . . Who was the last person to . . *
Say HI to you?:My mom.
Tell you, I love you?:I don't know.
Kiss you?:For the last time...
Hug you?:Wendy
Tell you BYE?:Wendy
Write you a note?:Jessica
Take your photo?:The last one I remember was Emily
Call your cell phone?:Someone who wanted my dad. The last person I know who called was Pastor Gabe, I think.
Buy you something?:Mom got me a belt. It's a nice white studded belt. That's the last thing I remember that wasn't food.
Go with you to the movies?:Emily? I think it was Emily.
Sing to you?:Andrew sang with me, but not really to me.
Write a poem about you?:I don't think I've ever had a poem written about me.
Text message you?:Andrew Borem. My current phone doesn't have text messaging.
Touch you?:This question is creeping me out a little bit.
* . . What's the last . . *
Time you laughed?:Probably today with Wendy or at Ben's guitar lesson
Time you cried?:Tuesday. That was a sucky day.
Movie you watched?:Step Up
Joke you told?:I don't really tell jokes
Song you've sang?:I was singing A Little More by Skillet while I did dishes. I played guitar and sang lots of songs last night at Lighthouse.
Time you've looked at the clock?:Like, ten minutes ago. It was 3:24 I think.
Drink you've had?:I had some green tea in a bottle.
Number you've dialed?:Jessica's number, yesterday when I needed to know what my Algebra assignment was
Book you've read?:Job in the bible. I haven't made it through anything since then.
Food you've eaten?:I had some cheese crackers a little while ago
Flavor of gum chewed?:Mint? I don't know.
Shoes you've worn?:Fake slip-on All Stars
Store you've been in?:Aldi
Thing you've said?:"Well, I'm on so you'll have to wait until I'm done"
* . . Can You . . *
Write with both hands?:Not well.
Whistle?:A little
Blow a bubble?:Yeah
Roll your tounge in a circle?:Yep
Cross your eyes?:Not really.
Touch your tounge to your nose?:No
Dance?:Hahaha. I can. I just choose not to.
Stay up a whole night without sleep?:Not alone. I can with other people and a lot of Sobe.
Speak a different language?:Not really
Impersonate someone?:No
Prank call people?:Hahahaha. Yes.
Make a card pyramid?:If I try really, really hard.
Cook anything?:Easy things that don't require lots of thinking.
* . . Finish The Line . . *
If i were a ...:butterfly I would fly forever and ever.
I wish ...:I could line dance. True story.
So many people don't know that ...:I would like to be good at sports, but I'm not and I can't help it.
I am ...:a butterfly!
My heart is ...:beating. Or, it's supposed to be.
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Today has been good so far. I went to school and gave my guitar lesson and hung/hanged out with Wendy. And tonight I'm going to babysit Grace and work off more of DumpsterBabyWhoNeedsARealName. So yeah! Good stuff.

I'm going to fill out a survey thing because I like those. Then you can all read it.

I'm going to try and convince my parents to let Makensie sleep over tomorrow. If she can, of course. That would be fun and awesome.



Ain't it something to know you've lost

My hair is wet and mostly combed.


It's Wednesday! My favorite! I should like, make cookies or something. I think it might be my snack day at small group, anyway.

Gotta run.



These days are all numbered, but things could get better

*laughing* Hans, you rock.

School was good and stuff. Tonight I have to babysit and then I have to go to rehearsal for worship on Sunday. The youth is doing it again, so it should be really fun. I really, really want some caffeine. *dies*

I'm starting a separate blog for writing songs and such. I'm excited about it. More on that soon.


What color should I paint my fingernails?

I need to take pictures of my guitar before I forget again.


You're the best thing that has happened to me, and the world will never take that away

I don't want to go to school today. That makes me think of that one poem from Where The Sidewalk Ends except that I've never faked being sick so that I didn't have to go to school. But I kind of have to go so I'm going to and I'm going to willingly. Yeah. Because I'm good like that.

Superbowl party was fun. We didn't get home until almost 10. I fell asleep with my contact lenses in. So they are still on and I don't think I'll take them off until after school.

What shall I wear? Hmm. I don't know. Nor do I care. So I will do what I normally do and just grab whatever fits and matches. Woohoo!

I like The Fray. I think I'll keep them. This song is like, seven minutes and some seconds long. That's kind of a long song. But it kept me entertained, so that's good.

TFP update: Ben doesn't want to practice tomorrow. So we're not practicing. Because Josh can't either. And we won't get much done without Josh because he has all the important parts to the songs that we need to work on. This wouldn't be a big deal except that we have a show in 11 days that we've practiced for once so far. Andrew and I are going to play an acoustic show at the end of March that Josh is also not going to play, not because he can't, but because he wants to go to a concert that is apparently ubercool. So that's cool and stuff, because I don't mind playing it with Andrew. And that way I can be selfish and play the songs the way I want to and stuff. Muahahahaha.

Okay. I need to get ready now.


Losers always make the winners' day

I am really tired this morning. I think I need caffeine. Yeah. That would help. I should get some. Like, a Mountain Dew or a cappuccino or an energy drink even. Yes! Sobe! W00t!

I need to start getting ready for church. Mom is making me wear my fancy outfit. *dies* I don't want to wear it. At all. And I don't even know why.

Heroes is a cool show. I enjoy it quite a bit.

Alright. I'm off to get ready for the day.

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You wash over me like rain

Tonight I'm going to go to Andy's basketball game. Emily and Andrew and hopefully Sierra and Lenna will all be there, so it will be lots of fun.

My hair is terribly frizzy and ugly today. I hate it a little bit.

I like Lifehouse.

PowerTab is kind of a cool program. I like to watch it scroll. And stuff. Yep.

This is the stupidest blog post ever. Wow.



I heard the rumors, they all were true, I miss you

People should critique those lyrics I posted because I can't quite put my finger on what I dislike about them. I like some of the imagery, but not the way all of it is presented, I think.

I'm doing pretty well. Just so everyone knows.



And I will sing you every single song

Have some random lyrics:

Point the camera just to make you smile
Speak just because I know you're listening
Pray that I don't get too carried away
We couldn't have that, now could we?
Wish on airplanes because the stars are broken
Listen to all the songs that know what I mean
My head is tired of hearing it all
So I'll turn it into words I can sing

I'll tell you everything that went on
And I will sing you every single song
And I know you'd save me from a thousand fears
If only you were here

If we ruled the world and controlled all the minds
And got everything I wanted and you wanted that too
And you rescued me from everything that ever touched me
Would we ever know what we're learning