Oh my goodness, I am so sleepy today. I really don't understand. I am assuming it's my sleeping pill I took last night that has made me so dysfunctional and groggy today. I am pretty sure that this was the result I go the last time I took a sleeping pill. Normally, I can't get to sleep at night or I can't stay asleep, and then I wake up sleepy but eventually I am able to function somewhat normally, especially once I have some caffeine. Last night I took my pill around 10:00 and it never really made me any sleepier than normal. Like usual, I started getting an inkling of tiredness around 11 or 11:30 so I tried to go to sleep. It seemed to take forever to fall asleep, but it was probably like 20 minutes or so, and then I woke up a couple times through the night. When my alarm went off this morning I was groggier than normal. I got out of bed late and never really did fully wake up. I figured my shower would help me feel more awake, but it didn't. I was excited to work on some Flash stuff, but I still couldn't keep my focus on it. I can't form sentences that make sense. I can't think of words. I am on my third can of Diet Mountain Dew hoping the caffeine will wake me up if I just sip it slowly throughout the rest of the afternoon. Of course, I did that with the first two cans and again, it didn't help. My eyes are heavy and can't focus well and my muscles feel sleepy and my back hurts like heck whenever I move a certain way and I am having trouble structuring basic sentences and I'm incapable of comprehending anything anyone says to me that is more complicated than "Want a slice of pizza?"
It really isn't as miserable as I made it sound just now. I am just not very productive today. I can't even focus on typing this blog out. Maybe Owl City will wake me up.
Later tonight I am going out to Cheesecake Factory with Emily. We have a gift card for $10 or so that we got when we went like, a year and a half ago or something, from one of those internet surveys where you talk about what you thought about the restaurant and then they give you free gift cards. Well, we never did use it, and we needed a plan for exchanging our presents to each other, so we're just doing it all tonight. We're also going to look for presents for our first grade Sunday School kids. We have gotten presents from a few of them, but we haven't yet made anything for them. I think we're going to get them each a cute ornament and write them little notes and give them some candy, all in cute bags. So we're going to work on that too. It should be a fun night.
On Saturday Andrew and I are getting all dressed up and going out to Cosi Cucina for Christmas. We're going to exchange our presents and have a nice dinner and then I don't know what we're going to do after that. We will probably just come back to my house and watch a movie or something.
I have Google Analytics for my blog, and let me tell you, it is way fun. I might have mentioned that before, but I still think it is the coolest thing ever.
Matt put the Adobe Master Collection CS4 on my laptop yesterday. I am in design nerd heaven.
Today or yesterday, I don't remember, I was reading Kepa's blog. He calls it The Fat Lazy Guy's Log, but he's not really fat or lazy. Maybe he used to be, but he isn't anymore. Anyway, he was talking about how he isn't a blogger because he doesn't write about a specific thing and he doesn't care about how many people read his blog and stuff like that. I was sort of thinking about that because I am very much the same way. My blog is just sort of a journal. I write stuff in it. Not specific types of stuff, just whatever is on my mind. And eventually maybe I won't like it anymore, but right now I kind of enjoy having my life out there in public. That is sort of backwards from how I normally am, because typically I don't really enjoy attention and being at the center of it makes me really uncomfortable most of the time, but with my blog I am kind of different. No one thinks you're stupid on the internet. The things you say are funny/inspiring/thought-provoking/whatever else to someone out there, instead of stupid or embarrassing or easy to disregard. You become some other sort of human being, or maybe something else entirely, when you're using the written word in a public format. That is how it seems to me at least. In my groggy state of being. So maybe tomorrow I won't think that at all. But whatever. You take me seriously because you're not with me in real life, so it's okay.
Anyway, I'm not really one of those famous bloggers who people read for entertainment or whatever. I'm just Mara writing about Mara to whoever wants to know. Probably not a lot of people do, but that is okay with me.
Actually, my blog has lots of visits from people all over the world. Google Analytics taught me this. You know why so many new people visit my blog? Because they google lines from songs and then my blog titles come up. They usually only stick around long enough to realize that this is some kid's blog and not a music lyric search site. The average time spent on my blog overall is less than 30 seconds. On new post days it is more like a minute and a half. Fascinating, eh?
Anyway, that's all I really have to say at the moment.
A Slightly Incoherent Butterfly