I know you didn't bring me out here to drown...

I will start out by getting all of my own problems out of the way.
I have some skin fungus disease on my nose.  It is not really a disease probably, but the bottom of my nose has all this peely, flakey skin on it.  Yep.  Weird.
Today I think I have the worst headache of my life.  Sinuses are exploding, and every time I make any significant movement the right side of my head explodes.  I have been lying on the couch all day.
State Wrestling is almost over.  Our school is the best.
Now, I will talk about all the things that are actually important.
Mikayla has bone cancer.  I still can't really comprehend that statement.  I do, and I don't at the same time.  She is at the hospital in Iowa City.  She just had surgery to get a sample of the bone marrow, the mass, and to put in a central line.  She probably starts chemo next week.
It feels really weird.  On one hand, I feel completely brokenhearted and strung out.  It's like I am praying in short, gasping breaths because my heart is falling to pieces.  On the other hand, I am trying so hard to be strong, especailly for Andrew.  I want to be brave.  I know that our God is so much bigger than this, and I believe that He can heal her.  I am trying not to be afraid.  But I am coming unglued.  And so I am the strong one and the weak one at the same time.  I am both fearful and trusting.  But I think it is okay.
And you never feel good or bad, only strange and unprepared...
Pray.  She can be healed.  I am believing that she can be healed.

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