Am I gonna be alright? because it doesn't feel that way, no, not today...

This past week has been weird.

I wish I could explain to people how terrifying it is to know that you should have an emotional reaction to something, and to then have not have one.  Or to have one that you are completely unable to understand or identify or express.

On Monday I have to go to a funeral for a 7-year-old little boy.  The world is a really effed up place when you have to go to a funeral for a child.

The very thing that I hate more than everything is the way I'm powerless to dictate my own moods...

Art is right, my blog needs an update.

Laura stayed for a grand total of almost THREE WEEKS!  It was a fun time, but her hubby needed her and so now I'm all alone again, with my kitty and my fishy.  It's not so bad.

I have 7 holes in my ears right now.  Yeah.  Getting crazy.

My mind has been especially insane lately.  My brain is literally just goinggoinggoinggoing all the time, and I get tired of that.  It goes psycho sometimes more than usual.

I wish I was better at writing songs about God and my faith.  I feel like my songs about God start to sound so stupid, like every other worship song, and it makes me kind of mad so then I throw them away.  I don't like worship music a lot of the time because it all sounds the same.  The lyrics are the same, the music is the same, the sentiment is the same.  I appreciate the music at DTC because they play a lot of really cool, unique songs for worship that speak a lot of truth and go a little deeper.  But as far as writing about God, it's somehow a lot more difficult for me than writing about other stuff.  So anyway.  Random topic there but I was thinking about it.

Galatians is really good.  I finished it this week.  You should go read it and learn lots.

It's really late and I'm not very good at thinking of new information about me.  Sorry about that.

My taxes are filed.  Yay!

Frosted animal crackers are straight from heaven.

Today I went out with Elle.  We got coffee.  Then, we went to her grandparents house and hung out with Dave.  Then we all three went to the mall, and shopshopshopped, and then Elle and I got Uncle Wendell's Barbecue which is so delicious, and then I went to church.  It was a good day.  And tomorrow will be good too, because I am going to fill it up with lovely people.

I have to wake up in 5 hours to get coffee with Chrissy.  I don't like having to wake up so soon.  I looooove coffee with Chrissy though, so it's totally worth it.

In two weeks I get a new phone, and I am soooo excited.

The end.

Mara

I won't say everything is right, it's not right, I don't see everything as right...

I have a roommate.  My deardeardear friend Laura is staying with me for a while while her really rad husband Andrew finishes being a computer nerd in Florida, and then he's going to move out to Des Moines as well and we'll all be best buddies.  But for real, I love them to pieces so I'm so excited to have Laura here.  We are having a lot of fun being roommates.  Except she has been dying of some flu virus grossness, but I think she's getting better.  A doctor gave her some drugs so that seems to indicate that the situation is going to improve.  Anyway, we have gone on a few adventures and it has been pretty great, and I'm pretty sure we'll do all the adventures over when Andrew moves out here since I'm sure he'll think they're the lamest thing ever.  I love it.

My kitty loves Laura more than me.  Because Laura has been sick and at home all week while I've been bringing home the bacon.  So unfair. *sniff*

The new Eisley album is so far pretty great.

Did you know that the Panera downtown closes at 8?  How weird is that?  What a horrible time to close.

Tonight Laura and I watched the movie Salt with Angelina Jolie.  It was alright.  We sat through it and even made fun of it some, and at the end I decided it had sufficiently entertained me for two hours, and that's really all I care about anymore in regards to movies.  Movies just suck anymore.  I haven't seen a good movie in a long time, with the exception of Inception, because Christopher Nolan is a genius.

My awesome big brotherfriend Patrick is coming over tomorrow.  I told him I'd cook him food.  That may have been a bad thing to say.  We will have either tilapia or chicken, I decided, because those are the only things I really cook.  If it can't be cooked on a George Foreman, microwave, or a saucepan I usually don't have anything to do with it.  Not that I can't cook.  I just don't.  So maybe it's good that I said I'd cook him lunch because then I actually have to cook something and it'll be good practice.  Or something like that.

I've decided this week that I really like Regina Spektor's music.  She's weird and quirky and bizarre.  I'm into those kinds of things.  I bought her album Far, and Eet and Machine are my favorite songs so far.

Time to sleep.  I hope you friends enjoyed my ramblings.

Love,
Mara